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I've learned so far that you can't ever give your complete self to anyone. It does not matter who it is, you can loose who you are because people are deceitful, you get mixed up in your emotions to then realize that person is a liar, or to be hurt in such a way that it changes you.

"I gave you my all and yet I still wasn't good enough. I gave you me on a platter I let you in, I brought down my walls and for what to now struggle with who did what and you realizing you made a mistake?"

Trying to live life to fullest and not let the outside factors of pain and lies come in holding a hard exterior keeping in the back of my head that at any second my world on the inside can come crumbling down. Being withdrawn from society so as to save my real self to keep the joyful carefree individual that is slowly fading away...