Miss Solo Dolo

Hello wonderful world wide web, lol writing to you with a thought that is ingrained in my head at the moment. So I have come to an understanding that I have changed from the person that I use to be when I was younger, which is expected of course but I can't help feeling that I'm loosing the understanding of how to project emotions for another. More and more I find myself being around a group of people and still feeling no type of connection or tie even though these people are individuals I've known for years. It gets to even more of a complication when I try to explain crushes, and affection to others. Maybe my sense of nurturing is just diminishing as the years go on and as more of life's fatal blows hit me. Though I am still young I can't help but have the feeling that I will never find someone to accept me for the person that I am, and reteach me the sense of nurture and care. It makes me feel awkward when I can't express myself that I'm really feeling because their are consequences that come with actions, and my thinking causes way too many feelings of anxiety because I raise questions that I cannot answer. The problem with that is that I will always be hesitant to ask those questions because I think of what the answers can or can't be and I'm afraid of not knowing. Not knowing how people feel in accordance to me, it's like I always have to be reassured. Idk if anyone will be accepting of my neurotic habits until then Miss Solo Dolo it is...