Weak

Hello everyone, I just wanna talk about the problem that I'm having that I'm sure many people have. Where you just have that one person who has power over you, that when they are good, they are so good and you just can't break away. And even when they are bad you still can't hope that you would be the one to make it better. Here I am melting in his hands again. I don't know what it is that makes me want him to give me attention. I don't want it to be any of those stupid games that we all play as a generation. That "Oh I still got it" or "I have her/him wrapped around my finger". I really don't want it to be that and something deep down is telling me that it is. But then again since he has somewhat of this power over me it make me just want to investigate, to take the chance and see what it is. This is unlike me, I can't have a dude run my thoughts, its just not right for me. My wrist says strength for a reason I can't just let him take it all away and leave me weak...