Neurotic much?

Hello world, back once again from being entrapped in my thoughts. But right now at this moment I'm feeling all types of funky...I'm lost within in thoughts and feelings. I feel one way but I'm thinking another. I have noticed that men is the root of my destruction. Especially if it is one that I have feelings for, I start doubting myself and getting all types of insecure. I mean I know that I have some insecurities, but overall I am pretty confident in myself to get any type of job done. (lol dirtyness going on in my head) But when it comes to a dude that I really like and I can't tell if he's feeling me the same way I get all types of messed up, like you would think I belong in a white padded room type pschyo, I believe that the roomie called it neurotic lol. This is exactly how this boy makes me feel, neurotic, flustered, and I can never stop thinking when I'm around him. This can't be healthy, I think I'm going to drive myself insane...