Why is it?

Why is it that every time I really like someone I just jump right in and don't think twice?
Why is it that I always give my all and get hardly anything back?
Why is it that I can't trust you even though there aren't any signs?
Why is it that I can't feel loved?
Why is it that I can find the time to call and txt u to talk but u can't?
Why is it that I'm sitting here crying over you?
Why is it that I'm so neurotic and just can't let things be?
Why is it that I feel like no one ever cares?
Why is it that I feel like no one ever listens?
Why do I think so much?
Why can't I just be happy and let myself be happy?
What is happiness and will I ever find it?
Why is it that I call you my boyfriend and sometimes it doesn't feel like it?
I think I care more than you do, I think I like you more than you like me, I don't think we are going to go very far...it doesn't surprise me, they never do.
Why is it that I can never find a dude who can stick around for ME and nothing else?