The whole picture

I have started to take notice that even though I want to do more things by myself, and to be fully independent from relationships, that I still want one. I want to have a relationship that isn't so stressful, where we can be friends and chill out, talk about anything and everything. But at the same time still care for each other and want to be with each other more than the level of friendship. I guess I still have not found someone who compliments me, to that level, who actually wants to take me seriously as a person. I mean it could be my fault as well, maybe I'm not that entertaining, or maybe I'm too closed off and don't open myself up enough to let people see the person I really am. I guess the truth is, is that I'm scared to be judged, I want to live my life the way I want to but at the same time I still want to be accepted for the person that I am. I'm crazy, silly,young at heart, old by mentality, emotional, neurotic mess at times (prolly most just highly composed lol), experimental, adventurous, caring and overall lovable. Many people I guess don't see all these parts of me, they only see the quiet, conservative, standoffish me. It just makes me a little disappointed that people do not want to take the time to get to know me, whether it be for a relationship or a friendship. I just want people to see the whole picture not just apart of it.