Thoughts

I've been having a lot of things on my mind lately. There is a lot of situations that has been thrown at me, nothing that I haven't dealt with before, but just new ppl in the mix. The boy I spoke of in the previous blog, is still somewhat pure perfection but I can't help but to have bad thought run through my head all the time. I don't really think he is ready to be in a relationship, because his ex hurt him real bad. I hate when some females take what good guys are left and screw them up so badly that they don't even know how to act anymore. I can't tell whether or not he really wants to be with me or if he's forcing himself to be with me because he is trying to get over this whole drama with his ex. I don't like being caught up in melodrama like this but then again I can't help the feelings I have for him either. I'm caught in the middle, I want him to be happy and I want to make him happy, but at the same time I think he finds more happiness through his friends than anything/anyone else. I just don't know what to do, or what to say, sometimes I think that he is too good to be true. That though he does all the these cute things and says all these wonderful things, that his intentions are something completely different. I mean it could be me, as we all know I put too much thought into things that need no thought at all, but I can't help it. I don't want to be hurt and I don't want to hurt him I just wish I knew what was going on in his head, that would put my mind at ease...