Thursday, January 14, 2010

My Moment

So today I had my moment, my moment to take an emotional stand over the power that Mr. Yeah had over me. The situation played out as follows: He texted me regarding the fact that I had been ignoring him and that basically if I was going to continue to ignore him that I should return his keys. Contemplating the situation, I went back in forth in my thoughts should I just give the keys back or should I feed back into the game. My decision was clear, I wasn't going to feed back into the game. So I went to his house gave him the keys without saying a word and left. I really didn't expect him to come after me and actually ask me if there was anything up but he did, I said no, to later text him and say, "I want what I can't have so I have so I have to cut you off for a bit."
The thing with this statement is that he is automatically going to assume that I wanted a relationship from him. Which is definitely not the case, what I wanted from him was attention and for him to show he cared if he really did care. I knew that would never happen so I had to take a stand, and have my moment to declare that I am not going to be a part of your game, you will not have my heart, and I will not let you have that power over me. It was fun while it lasted and hopefully one day we can be friends without the complications or the awkwardness. All I know is he can think what he wants, feel how he wants (if he feels anything), I had my moment... time to move on.

1 comment:

GhostHunter1986 said...

Good for you xio. i'm proud of you. thats what i admire about you. you got strength. way ta go